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It’s the silence that haunts the hallways.

The spaces you used to fill empty.

The words you’ll never say.

The things we cherish just an impression,

Left behind, burned in thought.

That’s when it all falls apart.

When the skies turn grey,

The ground opens up,

To take you away.



The world tries to tell you how to be.

What to say, how to feel and what we see.

The crowd disappears, people slip away.

Left alone, fading in and out of reality.

It’s the thought of yesterday,

What could have been.

The things I didn’t get to say.



The light is in your smile.

The things you taught me to say.

Your wisdom in tested waters.

You could walk a mile,

And never see the shadows.

You were always looking towards the light.



Warm tears fall,

Hearts bleed and build walls.

Days flash ahead,

Time too short.

Loneliness creeps in like water

Trying to undo what you built.

But I hold fast,

To remind the world of your voice.

You were the treasure,

You were the peace.
Today would have been Daddy's Birthday. He was a Valentine baby. So, today has been difficult...
This is relevant to my art because I was hunting through my collage papers that I use to do my multi-medium collages and I found a card from my dad and a picture taken of he and I when I was in my last year of college. It made my heart break, but the memories and the smile had reminded me of something...

Dad always supported me and my artwork. He always stood by me no matter what I looked like or what color I dyed my hair. No matter what I painted, he'd listen to the stories I'd tell him through them, and my dad saw me. He never tried to make me someone I wasn't. He might have told me I was a little bit of a slob when it came to keeping my room clean or the house...but he never tried to make me be anyone but who I was. 

That was a gift in itself. I know that I had a special Dad. I never took that for granted, and even when he lost both his legs---never did that make him any less than the man he was.

Thank you Daddy.

  • Mood: Sadness
  • Listening to: "For The Love of A Princess" by Myleene Klass
  • Reading: nothing
  • Watching: nothing
  • Playing: LJ Role-playing
  • Eating: nothing
  • Drinking: nothing...

This is my first day alone in this house since Daddy passed. When I had days off he and I would watch movies and just chit chat, talk and have fun cutting up.

Last night I told God I wanted him back even though I know such a thing is impossible. I had a moment of weakness because I loved him so much. My greatest fear sometimes has been did he know how much I loved him. You start thinking about all the things you did or didn’t do. I regret I didn’t see him as much in rehab when he was learning how to function without his second leg. I regret I didn’t get more than two weeks with him. I know I had Thanksgiving with him and there are a lot of things I say to be really, really strong—-and I mean them….

Just right now the missing him is far greater than anything else and I keep crying. I cried so hard last night I had a headache after. I know Daddy would want me to think of all the happy times, he was a man that was the perfect description of living each day to its fullest….I just wish I could hear him say he loved me again. Or feel him hug me one more time. Or hear him laugh.

It hurts more than I can stand sometimes…and being alone in this house today reminds me of that so, very, very much.


  • Mood: Sadness
  • Listening to: "For The Love of A Princess" by Myleene Klass
  • Reading: nothing
  • Watching: nothing
  • Playing: LJ Role-playing
  • Eating: nothing
  • Drinking: nothing...

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Lauren
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United States
Favourite genre of music: Rock, Alternative, J-rock, soundtrack
Favorite musicians: Placebo, Lovex, The Rasmus, Chiodos, Pierrot, X-Japan, The Vincent Black Shadow, Maroon 5, Of Monsters and Men
Favorite Movies: Moulin Rouge, The Princess Bride, Captain America The First Avenger, The Hobbit, Immortals, The Losers, Amadeus, Stardust, Lord Of The Rings Trilogy, Repo! The Genetic Opera...
Favourite style of art: Surrealism, Illustration, Collage
Operating System: Mac
MP3 player of choice: ipod
Wallpaper of choice: pretty boys :)
Favourite cartoon character: Too many!
Personal Quote: Love and Peace!
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This is relevant to my art because I was hunting through my collage papers that I use to do my multi-medium collages and I found a card from my dad and a picture taken of he and I when I was in my last year of college. It made my heart break, but the memories and the smile had reminded me of something...

Dad always supported me and my artwork. He always stood by me no matter what I looked like or what color I dyed my hair. No matter what I painted, he'd listen to the stories I'd tell him through them, and my dad saw me. He never tried to make me someone I wasn't. He might have told me I was a little bit of a slob when it came to keeping my room clean or the house...but he never tried to make me be anyone but who I was. 

That was a gift in itself. I know that I had a special Dad. I never took that for granted, and even when he lost both his legs---never did that make him any less than the man he was.

Thank you Daddy.

  • Mood: Sadness
  • Listening to: "For The Love of A Princess" by Myleene Klass
  • Reading: nothing
  • Watching: nothing
  • Playing: LJ Role-playing
  • Eating: nothing
  • Drinking: nothing...

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AYURI-327 Featured By Owner Sep 6, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thank you for the fave!! Hug 
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lilbit075 Featured By Owner Oct 20, 2014
You're very welcome!
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Kitsune1978 Featured By Owner Apr 17, 2014

Welcome to :icongaara-best-fanarts:Gaara-best-fanarts!


Our group has been created to collect the best Gaara related artwork. We are an artwork collection, not a fan club, which means there is a quality control in the group, and admins decide what gets into the group gallery.


Submissions are open for members only, 3 deviations per week per member. To determine the acceptable quality of submitted artwork we consider: artistic skill/composition, anatomy/technicality, creativity/originality, and overall impression of the work. Check out the group gallery for examples of what type of pieces we are looking for.


As a member you can advertise your activities in our journal: go to ADs


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Weekly feature: go to weekly feature


Several of our affiliates you may be interested in joining, and adding your Gaara artwork into their galleries: go to our affiliates


Thank you for joining. If you have any questions, don't hesitate to send a note to the group or leave a comment in the group comments section :) (Smile)

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Angel-Die Featured By Owner Mar 2, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Happy Birthday my friend!
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TouchedVenus Featured By Owner Mar 2, 2014  Professional Digital Artist
Happy Birthday! I hope that you have an amazing one! :D
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garrypfc Featured By Owner Feb 18, 2014   Digital Artist
thanks for the fave.
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Mari-Ghostly Featured By Owner Feb 13, 2014  Hobbyist Photographer
thanks a lot for watch! =D
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Monostache Featured By Owner Dec 15, 2013  Hobbyist Artisan Crafter
Thanks so much for adding my Avengers buttons to your favorites! Please consider liking my Facebook, where I share lots of stuff about my crafts, art, cosplay, and general tips/thoughts. I also have lots of giveaways, the next one happening once I get 1000 likes on the Facebook page. : ) www.facebook.com/Tofustache

Also, for the month of December, I'm having a promotion for 5% off all orders with use of the coupon code YOHOHO when checking out in my shop~ : )
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OceanSummoner13 Featured By Owner May 27, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I'm sorry that you were able to make it to Animazement this year, I hope you have fun at the other convention.
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Essinvrok Featured By Owner Apr 26, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thank you for the fave, Lauren! Quite a wonderful gallery you have yourself, I must say (:
-Nora
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